A soldier’s last words

Iraq After the Fall of Saddam Hussein

Courtesy of Gawker is the story of one soldier’s last words.

Here’s a snippet:

Thus, I am left with basically nothing. Too trapped in a war to be at peace, too damaged to be at war. Abandoned by those who would take the easy route, and a liability to those who stick it out—and thus deserve better. So you see, not only am I better off dead, but the world is better without me in it

This is what brought me to my actual final mission. Not suicide, but a mercy killing. I know how to kill, and I know how to do it so that there is no pain whatsoever. It was quick, and I did not suffer. And above all, now I am free. I feel no more pain. I have no more nightmares or flashbacks or hallucinations. I am no longer constantly depressed or afraid or worried.

This is hauntingly sad piece to read for a number of reasons. The two that first come to mind:

1.) It’s a damn shame that we send soldiers to fight in unjust, undeclared and immoral wars and then when they return, we allow them to fall through the cracks. Now, granted, it’s a volunteer military and many within that apparatus will never even see combat. However, for those that do, it quite obviously imprints upon their minds and hearts.

2.) There are a plethora of misconceptions surrounding mental health, illness and suicide. One I wanted to highlight here is the misconception that suicide is “selfish.” People ought to realize that those who commit suicide do not do so on a “spur of the moment” type impulse. It’s not something where you just wake up one day and kill yourself. No, typically, a person that kills themselves arrived at that point after years and sometimes even decades, of internal suffering. It’s a prolonged process that for an alarming number of veterans and otherwise, leads to suicide.

2 thoughts

  1. Thanks for sharing this, I am glad I came across it. Your second point is something I really agree with and a real hate of mine, how anyone can describe suicide as ‘selfish’ in any way beggars belief, the process to get to that point, as you say, is long and painful. Thanks again for the post.


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